Pale Compromises

Commentary:
This is more specifically personal than I would like it to be, and therefore has that kind of triviality of the real that might fail to make it meaningful for anyone but myself... or another person who has taken part in a silly college non-love affair. I have considered striking it from the repetoire, but I also feel it is my most successful chord sequence-- probably because I lifted a fair portion from Costello's "Deportee" (honestly, he wasted it!) and a key figure from Tom Waits' "Blue Skies." I apologize to "Lucy" if she ever hears this song, because I bet would probably figure it out, maybe for the first time.

Lyrics:
Remember the day you were crying
eyes wet with tears of belief
you weren't supposed to stay together
but you could never really leave
Why did you let me fall in love with you
when your heart was never free?
Why did you take me out dancing all night long and hold me so
I'd believe?

Remember that night in the pool hall
with your ex-boyfriend and Marie
I could tell right away that you loved him
or at least you had met him before me
Why did you take me out dancing all night long?
Why did you make me believe?
How could look at me with those dark and lovely eyes and never know?
Lucy.

I could tell you were broken like a wine glass
that fell from the lips of a beast
you were waiting to open like a rosebud
that trembles at the touch of the breeze.
Why did you look at me with those dark and lovely eyes?
Why did you make me believe?
Didn't you know that it was godamn, fucking hard not to hold you?
Lucy.

We stayed up all night in November
blowing smoke-rings by the lake.
You told me it was so romantic
and couldn't look me in the face.
Didn't you know that it was godamn, fucking hard?
Why did you make me believe?
Why did you walk me by the frozen waterside to feed your breadcrumbs
to the geese?

Never could blame you cause you loved him
that might be the best part of you.
You had so much love and you needed someone
but I needed someone too.
Why did you walk me by the frozen waterside?
Why did you make me believe?
Sometimes I wonder if you even know how badly I... loved you so,
Lucy.